| | In a crowded room full of fellow Johnson county joes and joannes i felt all alone while stumbling across the realization that i was pretending. and if i was pretending, there was a good chance that many of the people around me were pretending. are we all pretending? here, especially in our little Christian world, we put so much stock in transparency and discuss how we admire those who are so very "real" and we hate "posers", but it seems to me that really very few of us even strive for that. Instead we strive to have a perfect or close to life that would make it so much easier for us to be real instead of the closeness to Christ that would make us okay with our "real" selves regardless. I think often as a psuedo-leader i feel it a responsibility to put on a smile and act like i love everything and everyone and every once in a while allow myself to fall into the arms of my mentors and those leaders above me that i "know" have it all under control. In reality, these leaders and people i hold in such high regard don't have it all together and i am aware of this (so if you are one of these people reading this, don't feel as if i am making you pretend. i look up to you regardless) They seem to handle themselves so much better and i sure much of this has come with age and experience and their hearts that are seeking diligently after Christ. I know even some of my most revered mentors struggle with this as well though. The question i am asking of myself and anyone who wishes to respond is how does the church grow as a body of believers, and how do we enter the throne room of God with a mask on, with this stench of fakeness coming from all of us? I don't believe we can. So then the real question becomes how to we cure this need of a masquerade to function? |
| | Posted 3/20/2006 4:55 PM - 17 Views - 8 eProps - 6 comments
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